*siiiigh* Why we quit.

I dropped out of the Team in Training season today. I have a bunch of reasons. Some of them are.... sort of good.

• I am having issues finding a sports replacement drink that is compatible with 1,500 mg/d of metformin. I have found that I am OK with 1-1.25 hours of exercise, but when I get past that point, I can't take in enough sports drink to keep me refueled without encountering real (ummm....) gastrointestinal distress from all the sugar mixing it up with the metformin. Since we have gotten into our longer bike rides & BRicks, this is becoming a real problem. It would also be a huge problem on race day, since my last triathlon took me over three hours to complete.
  
• I hate bike riding in NYC. While I realize that this is mostly a case of nerves, it is a gigantic training problem. I have been out on my bike exactly four times this season - totally insufficient training. I have tried to force myself to just get out there, but even when I do, I don't feel like I'm getting in particularly good training rides. I spend way too much energy focusing on not getting killed in traffic. Trying to bike train in NYC makes me miss Marin County!
  
• I hate training outside in the heat. Since I haven't lived on the East Coast during the summer for several years, I had forgotten just how much I hate being outside in this heat & humidity. Since I already spend about half my days outside for work, I really have hated spending additional time outside working out.
  
• I haven't been doing well on the fundraising. While I offer a gigantic thank you to any & all who have donated, so far I've only raised $882.00 out of $2,250.00. I have little interest in doing any fundraising events for TNT either. I'd rather invest that money-raising energy in hotpantsgalore's theatre company, One Trick Pony Productions.
  
• I've been working out, probably an average of six hours a week. And yet, I feel guilty because it isn't twelve hours a week. I'm sick of this.
  
• I think TNT-NYC staff is mediocre, especially when contrasted with the TNT-SF folks I met last year. Working with the coordinators has been frustrating & I haven't been impressed with the quality of the coaching.

I informed the TNT staff of my decision today (around 10 AM) & I still haven't heard a response. I plan to stay involved with my mentees all the way through race day. I'm going to continue to work out, obviously - it's an important part of my diabetes management scheme. But I'm going to stop feeling guilty about sleeping in on Saturdays, or about running on the treadmill in the air-conditioned gym instead of in the suffocating heat of Central Park.

I've been missing a lot of my goals this year. I need to think about what that might mean.