Therapy Session 2.
Jan. 4th, 2018 09:58 amYesterday I had my second therapy session with Tracy Stuart. I experienced many of the frustrations I've always had with therapy, the biggest one being that we spent most of the session talking about things that I don't feel are germane. We talked a lot about Richard & the upheaval in my family from his discovery. Which - yeah, it was tumultuous, but it's not even vaguely related to why I sought out therapy. I came to therapy to learn how to stop getting crushes on people, to put an end to limerence.
I am trying to remember a bit of wisdom from Kvothe: "If I seem to wander, if I seem to stray, remember that true stories seldom take the straightest way." So we may seem to be wandering, but I assume that Tracy needs to get to know me a bit before she can figure out what help I need. And we probably did make progress on that front yesterday. I told her about how, once upon a time, I told![[profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
funkyplaid I wanted to be a robot. I don't remember exactly why I said I wanted to be a robot, but it was something along the lines of "no one expects robots to understand emotions." Tracy & I talked about how I - & our whole society - tend to live in our heads, excluding the wisdom of the heart.
She asked me to do three things:
+ continue meditating for at least five minutes, twice a day
+ schedule an evaluation for medication (she thinks I probably ought to be on antidepressants again)
+ read a book called The Lost Art of Heart Navigation: A Modern Shaman's Field Manual. The title alone is enough to make my eyes roll far enough back in my head to view my brain stem, BUT - I found the first ~50 pages on Google Books, so I'm going to read them & then decide if I want to spend $10.99 to buy the whole thing.
Stay open to new ideas, Ang. Because the way you've been going lately isn't working, so you need to do something different. Maybe follow a shamanic path. Who knows. You certainly don't.
I am trying to remember a bit of wisdom from Kvothe: "If I seem to wander, if I seem to stray, remember that true stories seldom take the straightest way." So we may seem to be wandering, but I assume that Tracy needs to get to know me a bit before she can figure out what help I need. And we probably did make progress on that front yesterday. I told her about how, once upon a time, I told
funkyplaid I wanted to be a robot. I don't remember exactly why I said I wanted to be a robot, but it was something along the lines of "no one expects robots to understand emotions." Tracy & I talked about how I - & our whole society - tend to live in our heads, excluding the wisdom of the heart.She asked me to do three things:
+ continue meditating for at least five minutes, twice a day
+ schedule an evaluation for medication (she thinks I probably ought to be on antidepressants again)
+ read a book called The Lost Art of Heart Navigation: A Modern Shaman's Field Manual. The title alone is enough to make my eyes roll far enough back in my head to view my brain stem, BUT - I found the first ~50 pages on Google Books, so I'm going to read them & then decide if I want to spend $10.99 to buy the whole thing.
Stay open to new ideas, Ang. Because the way you've been going lately isn't working, so you need to do something different. Maybe follow a shamanic path. Who knows. You certainly don't.
