Goodbye, lady.

[angledge]

"Sarah died yesterday."

I have been saying this over & over again, trying to accept that it is true.

Because it obviously isn't true. Sarah is alive & well in Edinburgh, planning her next trip to the Whisky Society, popping onto IM, dressing up for a ceilidh, rocketing through the countryside on an action-packed road trip, cuddling with her kitties ..... the distance makes it almost possible to pretend that this is the case, but I can feel her absence even from here. She's not signed onto IM. She's not sending text messages. She will never do these things again.

And now I'm crying again.

I knew Sarah for less than two years, but she had so much impact on my life. She made my time in Scotland vastly richer than it would have been otherwise, orchestrating all kinds of experiences in the city & country, giving of her network of friends & family, sharing with me her love of that place. After I came back to the States, she still stayed close via IM, LJ, & all the other technological means we could utilize. Her adventures brought her to the US last July, & she spent two weeks soaking up the culture of both coasts, taking in as much as she could despite the pain she was in. She urged me to ask la chica out on a second date - as usual, her argument was that we must always seize the day, take the chance.

And now I'm crying again.



Goodbye, Sarah. I love you.

Comments

[funkyplaid.livejournal.com]

I can't think of a more fitting picture for you to post here. Look, she's just about to turn into a mermaid and swim off into the sea forever.

[pisica.livejournal.com]

Oh hell, now I'M crying.

[angledge.livejournal.com]

There were seals in the water that day. Maybe she was really the selkie all along....

[mamajoan.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[miss-katelynne.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[chaosvizier.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry too, Ang. I wish I had gotten a chance to meet her.

Take care of yourself. You know how to reach me.

[richcsigs.livejournal.com]

*big hugs* I'm so sorry.

[hermiston.livejournal.com]

Dear Ang, you and Sarah are both in my thoughts. x

[jacesan.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry Angela. She has a good argument.

[agntprovocateur.livejournal.com]

sending you my love with a helping of big hugs.

[kwokj.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[mrsjadephoenix.livejournal.com]

Really sorry to hear about your friend.

[scifantasy.livejournal.com]

My sympathies on your loss.

[songquake.livejournal.com]

)))hugs(((

it's so hard, always, to lose a good friend. harder still when that friend passes so far away from you.

be gentle with yourself, and i hope you find ways to celebrate the life of someone who has been so special in yours.

[calamityshane.livejournal.com]

I'm very sorry, Ang. At least you both met and influenced eachother as deeply as you did.

[gravitygirl07.livejournal.com]

She looks young. I'm sorry that she had to live with her pain for even a moment. As someone above stated, that picture is perfect, and speaks well beyond a thousand words.

I'm sorry for this obviously large loss of yours, Ang. You're in my thoughts.

[angledge.livejournal.com]

Sarah turned 32 a week ago. Far too young.

[trishalynn.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know how you feel. IM sometime if you need to commiserate.

[angledge.livejournal.com]

I have thought of you & kielle many, many times since this catastrophe began.

[trishalynn.livejournal.com]

I thought of you and Sarah when kielle died, and how I felt as if my prayers weren't going to be answered for Sarah since they weren't for Kelly. But things have turned out okay for some of the other people I prayed for on September 3. One friend is pregnant again (and this time it should stick), another delivered a healthy baby girl after much anxiety and Amanda Winn-Lee's baby boy is out of danger.

The wheel, she turns and sometimes our spirits get crushed under it. But the spokes and our spirits will rise again.

[trishalynn.livejournal.com]

Or if she isn't the same person as the one you asked me to pray for, please let me know so I can take the foot out of my mouth.

[angledge.livejournal.com]

Actually, that was my housemate's mom that I asked you to pray for. She died in November. My other housemate's mother died about two weeks later.

It's been a dark time at le Chateau.

[fizrep.livejournal.com]

I know nothing really helps grieving, but I do offer my heartfelt condolences. ::hugehugs::

[effrontery.livejournal.com]

((((Ang)))) I'm so sorry. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

[marasca.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, hon. I'm not really sure what to say, but big big hugs to you. If you want to talk, just let me know when I can call.

Thank you, my dear.

[angledge.livejournal.com]

You can always call at any time.